10.12.2002
Father/Mother
Take my salam(respect). I hope
that you are running well with the Grace of Allah and taking with younger and
elder of all members of the house. I am also running well with your good wish
and with the grace of Allah . My dear mother, I had been many words for to say.
But you do not hear by your ear and I have not any chance for to say it. I say
that it can be written many items in the letter. My non spoken words are giving me much pain.
I have none dishearten if my non spoken words may be given me more and more
pain. But I want that you should be live in peace. Although it has been damaged
of your peace due to the cause of me, for it I am sorry and I want that you will not be forgiven me in any day.
Father/mother, I may tell with pledge that for the purpose of your peace, I can
be dedicated of my life in my
smile. Which ever matter is saying from
the first time by me, it is also telling
still be same words. I have
nothing paper with me of the marriage and also not remaining it with Jashim and
Shajahan. All of the documents are remaining with the Kazi Office. If you are
wanted, then I shall be given divorce to Nasrin within this month. But I have a
request that you could not be given pressure for the purpose or remarriage and
I have been wanted to see all after gone to the country. If you are forbidden
me, then I have nothing objection.
After ending the duration of my
Visa and later if you are told, then perhaps will not be possible to be gone or
I could not be come to Japan
if I be gone to the country. Now this will be depended upon you. I am saying
again that if you are wanted, then I shall be given divorce to Nasrin within this month. I know that it
can not be gotten peace after given pain to the mind of the father and mother.
It is really to say a truth that I have nothing a single peace into my mind. I
use to go out at 08.00 hours in the morning and I use to return at 02.00 hours
at night, after this of which little amount is remaining, then it also can not
sleep with peace. As there is given religious forbidden, then I did not make of
my self-killing. Otherwise, in many time before, I could be done of my
self-killing. Really for one kind of
wrong of me, today now is going on non peace in whole of a family. But if are
normally consented of my wrong, then perhaps it would not be happened such kind
of problem. It is the big word that you have been followed some of the hearing
speech and has been become too much sentimental. If you were made in some times
with hardship action to the hearing
speech persons, then it would not be increased in so much position. Let it be
gone of those, of which kind of decision will be taken by you, I shall be
consented it without any hesitation.
Mother I think that you were
wanted to say something about the matter of Jyotsna.
Really it comes many words if is
said about her and if those are written into the letter then whole of the pen
ink will be ended. Yet after this, the matter of her activities will not be
ended and if there is arisen words about her, there it creates some kind of
aggrieve to you. My dear father/mother, from the next day of my coming of which
kind of dealings are received from Jyotsna, it can not be such a word to be
told. She was told me after 2 days my
coming in Japan
that my appearance is not liked by her. Even it would not be liked by Nasir. I
am a black person, fatty and short person, I can not walk well, I cant not talk
in well etc. etc. I am now clearly
understanding that as my appearance was not liked by her and as such would make
bad dealing with me. I know that you will not be believed of my word, but will
be believed of the words of Jyotsna, for it I do not mainly write the letters.
Where directly Jyotsna does use bad words to the mother as uncivilized, less
sense full which is not a matter of all. And I do not tell anything. Yet after
this, after hearing the words of the liar, yet after this, you do angry with me
after her word.
Mother/father, let it be believed
with me that dealing and character is so
much bad, which is can not be told with language. For this kind of dealing of
her, there is done fighting in every day. And then Mr. Nasir does use ill
words. All of the Bengali peoples of Japan do know about the version of their character.
Peoples also make criticism after
sitting into the shop to them. For all of the words at last that he is my
sister. After consenting all and was wanted already to keep with her. But at
when he was told to me that nothing place in my residence and you may be gone,
then I had been gone out. I was gone out after 12.00 hours of night from the
house and it had been a day of rain and stormy. I had gone out from her house
within the rain fall and she did not such a word, “Where you are going within
such kind of rain and stormy day and in such a deep night”. Rather I will be
gone out in the dated 1st also, but I did not be able to be gone.
She did not keep rice also. Because, she will not be eaten me without money.
Let it be gone, I have nothing objection for it. At when I would be gone taken
with Jyotsna, she would tell me, “ As you are my brother, I will not be told of
it”. For which cause in two or three place, the Japanese are told, “Is he is
your boy friend”. Then what kind of bad situation would come with me that in place of brother-sister, I have become a
boy friend and a girl friend.
Mother, are you forgotten about
the dealing of Jyotsna. In which day you would tell your words with phone, in
that you have already cried. Have you
forgotten all of the words on today.
Now on today, her bad words has
been come good. And already my good words are also become bad to you. If so,
will I be imagined the same that as Jyotsna has money and as such, if she uses
ill words, then it likes sweet one. And
I have nothing money with me and as such, my words does seem as like as poison.
My dear mother, these kinds of word will be treated such of bad to you, same as
these kinds of words for the purpose of writing, there will be seemed to me
bad. I was not wanted to known about the matter of Jyotsna
and about me to you, because it will become bad of your mind. But that illiterate at when was informed to
you, then nothing had been with me. She thinks ownself too much clever and
intelligent. Really as she lives into the made world, this is not liked by him.
Many peoples in Japan
do know that she is a half mad, because if she tells one thing in this time, in
other time she tells the reverse word. She has been become a bloody brain with
the egotism due to money, she does not see anything in her eyes. Mother, she
has told to me that you would make very worse dealing with her and you would
love Shahin and Shirin apa. And according to her version, you would beat to
Jyotsna and would quarrel. For it, she has been quarreled to you as illiterate
and lower level person. Of which
son/daughter does quarrel to his/her parents calling an illiterate person.
Then which kind of egotism is
remaining him/her, kindly do think for it. If you do not believe of my words,
then will be told to Jyotsna that in a day when sitting two persons together,
then will be made phone call and I will be proved that my words are truth. And
as his/her words are false that will also be proved. Mother and father, I do
not inform you the sides of worse character of Jyotsna. Because those will not
be able to be spoken by my mouth. At when he/she was taken my passport and
Align Card, at that time I would be told to the Immigration Police, then
keeping their husband/wife and children into the jail which at least five year
and would be sent to Bangladesh. If I be
wished, then I can do it, but this kind of disbelieve works will not be done in
any day. Because, she has been taken me to Japan and such kind of grateful
ness is remaining with me. My dear father, she has been made him out from the residence.
Yet after this, I had been wanted to mix with him. Of which word I have been
told to the elder brother that let it be
done anything by him/her, but if he/she requests me, then it will be possible
on behalf of me to be keeping out side is not
possible. As the elder brother was to Jyotsna, but did not get any
response from her. But then I myself
taking with the peoples of the Islamic Mission and was wanted to be sitting with her.
But nothing good answer was
received from Jyotsna, because, she has an imagination that I do not know how
to cooking, as such, there will be need help from her. Then I have been told to
that boys, I can die after suffering, yet after this, may Allah as not to be
taken me to her. I have been changed my opinion due to her dealings. I do not
want to see her face till be period of death of me. As I have been shown such kind of
flexibility, she has been shown me such kind of temper. For the period of last
two years, which amount of money I have been taken from you and from her and
everything of it is counted from me, even of amount of money is needed for to
be taken me, from this money (interest/bribe) is also counted. Although I will not be given interest,
because given of interest, there has been forbidden in our religion. Father and
mother, I do not want to tell anything to this matter. Because relation of our
brother-sister is already finished for whole of life. Here is everybody known,
no body person in Japan
for me. Because, from this I do not want to give her identity. As such, there
is nothing profit after saying words about this.
I want to get suffer from my done
sin full works. Mother, I may inform to you that none mother can not keep silent during the trouble period
of her child/issue. You could not also
be done of the same, which I have a believe. I think none unhappy person is
remaining into the world like me.
My un happiness is only taken
with you. Because you are remaining much un happiness taken with me. I have
nothing sleep after think it. Mother, I tell you that during the minor age of a
child, the mother after not eaten, but to eat to the child and after keeping of
the same and taken my meal or without taken of my meal and after done hard
labor like an ass and sent money. Because, I had an imagination, I can do
labor, yet after this, my father and mother can not get trouble. I send money
after done of which kind of trouble, for it if you do ask to Jyotsna and could
be known of it. One can not do by ownself during his/her study period. Where I move by ownself
and I try to send something into the country in always. Mother in exchange of
it, I have been heard from you that I have been made two family from one
family. Why Allah does not give me my death before hearing of this word.
Because, from the mother of a sense full son, does not want to hear. Which kind
of sin have done in my life, for which
cause, my life has been come to such kind of
pain full matter. As for one of
the marriage is made me worse of my life status. As such, I have been wanted to
get release from this kind of sin.
Father and mother, I have been telling with a truth that
I have none terms and conditions.
Of which kinds of decision will be
taken, I shall be obey it without any hesitation. But I have been wanted that
as you like to do so, which will be done in quickly. Because, I have been
wanted freedom from this pain full matter. Father I have been told to you for
about two months before. But till the period, you did not do anything. Rather,
all kinds of faults is imposed upon me. Father, I have only a receipt of the
marriage and I have been given of it. According to it, if you are searched out
into the Kazi Office of Mohakhali, all of the documents will be received. And if they do not return of the documents,
then will be given phone number to me and will be told to them.
Father, I have been telling to
you with truth, I have nothing objection to this matter. But I have a request
to you, what ever is necessary to do, make it quickly. I have been waiting for
your opinion. To this matter, anything is remaining to make a discussion, then
in any Sunday, after call me with telephone and I will be made ring back of
that telephone. Father and mother, I
have been face such kind of trouble, I shall be sent money to you. You will not
be made any kind of negligence for your meals. You will be eaten fish, meat,
milk, egg etc. in regularly. I shall be tried to be given money in the days of
Eid-ul-Fitr. I have been writing of this letter for the period of last one
week. Because, I have nothing period to write a letter. In between the class
with sitting have been written of this letter. By this time, the Eid-ul-Fitr of
holy Ramadan is ended.
I was maintained 24 numbers of
fast. But I did not able to pray the Eid prayer. Although I was taken leave
from one place. I can not make communication with any body after get up from
sleep, as such, I was passed my time after lay down on the bed in my residence.
Father and mother, in such kind of
foreign country life, Eid may be come how much
a trouble, it is only known to me. As any kind of relative or own person
is not existing in Japan
that I will be passed my times with them. I did not see in any day of my life,
now I live with them together, to have my meals, I do sleep. If I be died,
perhaps, you will not be heard of the news. For this, if the school is known,
then perhaps they will be arrange to send of my dead body through Alamgir. Here
is counting as my guardian, in documents is brother Alamgir. I have been
delivered of my marriage document. If you asked to him, you will be known much.
I have been paid 300 dollars to you. From it will be given to the elder(miah)
brother of 10,000.00 taka and you will
be taken for rest of the money. As he had been many goods, as such, I did not
able to take any goods of own. Besides, price of goods in Japan is more than 10 times multiplication than
it Bangladesh.
However, if there is getting chance in later period, then I shall be sent a
over coat for my father and some worm clothes for my mother.
Mother, if I be sent money, then
of which chain of Parvin I had been
sold, then in exchange of it
one of 10 grams and 4 anna weight
chain will be bought to her. Or, an equal amount of money will be given to her.
I do not want to owe to her for this. For this kind of chain, I have been face
much scolding and has suffer from much pain. I inform you also that as the
younger brother of husband of Yeasmin named Harun will be received many money
from our family. As there is not come any problem of Yeasmin for the matter of the
money, there will be arranged for it. Nothing money will be received from me. I
do not know nothing about the money of chairman. Because, Yeasmin ownself has
been given of this money. I have been brought it being only a bearer. However,
besides this money, Harun will also be receivable more other 8,000 taka from
me. You will be solved of this problem in quickly. Otherwise, Yeasmin may be
face much unhappiness. May things is not written. Yet after this, I have
already written a long letter. I shall be tried my best to write in later
period. I am here waiting for the reply
of your letter. Kindly convey my salam (respect) to the elders and to the
younger, I convey my good wish and love and I am taken good bye from you for
today purpose.
Here is end.
Yours loving dearest son
Md. Jahangir Alam
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